You can't not have chemistry

Guess what Tommy? You're a drunken jerk and not someone I'd thought you'd be. You were sweet for few days and then started to show your real side. I knew those kisses had no feelings. I should've followed my instinct but no, I was too stupid. I guess I'm still in the process of learning. I just wish to find a guy who'd last more than a week. What am I doing wrong? I was taking it slow this time...): Maybe slower?

Maybe?

Okay...so another make-out? lol. I honestly don't think I'm a slut or a whore. I just need someone by my side. And this time, I don't think he'll be a douchebag or a jerk. I really hope so. He actually texts back. lol. :) Makes me smile. But when girls are in his room, it makes me really insecure and jealous. We'll see how this goes.

Chemistry exam tomorrow. Wish me luck! :)

EDIT:
Jason's way out of the picture. He freaking chickened out because there was a rumor that Joey had a freaking STD. I was so depressed for few days, but I got checked. GUESS WHAT? I'M CLEAN!!!! That taught me a lesson the hard way. I'm never experiencing something like this...ever again. :)

College Drama

Well, obviously, I had to find out that college has more fucking drama than high school the hard way. Who knew life can get this complicated? My life's so messed up right now that I really want to just take a step back and realize what stupid shit I had done. I seriously need to take control of myself, or I'm really going to become someone that I'm not.

So...here's what had happened so far. I haven't really had the time to blog, and I realized that I really should document this part of my life so I could reflect on it later. Hopefully, I can laugh about it in the future.

Well, I got over Steve (aka Douchebag #1). Although I still see him sometime and jump, the symptoms of heartache aren't as heavy as before.

After that, I met this guy named Joey at the library. He was being flirty...I was being flirty. Things got out of hand. I was still into Steve so I guess Joey was someone who helped me get over him (I don't think it was rebound, but whatever floats your boat). We made out few times. Oh, yeah, I almost forgot. He almost raped me. lol. It's actually funny to me because he tried tying me with my belt. But I got out of it. lol. One thing that I really did like about him was that he was outgoing and had a big dick (well...that wasn't really important but it made it better, okay? lol). So when I was giving him the head one time, I actually threw up on his dick since it was so big and gagging me. Haha. We had a steamy shower make-out after that. He actually let me make-out with him in the small rain shower too. lol. All that would be cute if I could be his girl, but you know, reality's far more complex. He's a douchebag. He's a jerk. He's an asshole. He flirts with way too many girls and probably has someone to make out with every single night. When I actually fell for him and had heartaches from waiting for his texts, I had to realize that there was no freaking way that I could ever be with him. So I had to move on.

Then I met Jason. lol. You're probably like WTF. haha. I went to his 21st b-day party. He's actually a member of the asian fraternity. Surprisingly, he was in the honors college and doing g-med. I got his number and all, but he never texted so I wasn't really paying attention at first (since I was still obsessed with Joey). Then, one day, he texts...asking me to go eat pho with him. I did...of course. lol. Then, I don't know what the hell I was thinking, but I invited him to my room. I was just trying to be playful and asked if he wanted to take a nap in my room (I seriously just wanted to take a nap). We were taking a nap for a while, but then...of course...it leads to make-out. And make-out leads to something else. It sucks that he's not answering my text anymore. I went to a party looking really nice, hoping to see him there. But he wasn't. So I texted him and he was like...I'm busy studying. Who's the fuck studies on a Saturday night?

And then, there's my friend Andrew. He's not really my type. He's really touchy and clingy sometimes. I wasn't really concerned at first because he had a girlfriend. But, apparently, Joey hooked up with her so when Andrew found out, he was pissed. The night of another asian party, I was hanging out with my friends and Andrew in GRC. Then he started massaging my back and eventually started groping me. I didn't really stop him, but it was so awkward and uncomfortable. It just kept going on like that for the whole night (with my friends in the room...@_@;;). Then, guess what? I find out that he broke up with his girlfriend the next day. WTF...please...noooo...if he gets any idea that I'm interested, I am so screwed.

I'm soooo done with guys right now. I'm going to stop texting people and just stay my room for the next few days. ): I've got to change my new whore-ish habit or else I'm really going to turn into one....GOT TO STOP