Hmmm....?

Okay...Jason texted me back. We hooked up again, and he actually stayed over night. I don't know what's going on anymore...): sooo confused...

You can't not have chemistry

Guess what Tommy? You're a drunken jerk and not someone I'd thought you'd be. You were sweet for few days and then started to show your real side. I knew those kisses had no feelings. I should've followed my instinct but no, I was too stupid. I guess I'm still in the process of learning. I just wish to find a guy who'd last more than a week. What am I doing wrong? I was taking it slow this time...): Maybe slower?

Maybe?

Okay...so another make-out? lol. I honestly don't think I'm a slut or a whore. I just need someone by my side. And this time, I don't think he'll be a douchebag or a jerk. I really hope so. He actually texts back. lol. :) Makes me smile. But when girls are in his room, it makes me really insecure and jealous. We'll see how this goes.

Chemistry exam tomorrow. Wish me luck! :)

EDIT:
Jason's way out of the picture. He freaking chickened out because there was a rumor that Joey had a freaking STD. I was so depressed for few days, but I got checked. GUESS WHAT? I'M CLEAN!!!! That taught me a lesson the hard way. I'm never experiencing something like this...ever again. :)

College Drama

Well, obviously, I had to find out that college has more fucking drama than high school the hard way. Who knew life can get this complicated? My life's so messed up right now that I really want to just take a step back and realize what stupid shit I had done. I seriously need to take control of myself, or I'm really going to become someone that I'm not.

So...here's what had happened so far. I haven't really had the time to blog, and I realized that I really should document this part of my life so I could reflect on it later. Hopefully, I can laugh about it in the future.

Well, I got over Steve (aka Douchebag #1). Although I still see him sometime and jump, the symptoms of heartache aren't as heavy as before.

After that, I met this guy named Joey at the library. He was being flirty...I was being flirty. Things got out of hand. I was still into Steve so I guess Joey was someone who helped me get over him (I don't think it was rebound, but whatever floats your boat). We made out few times. Oh, yeah, I almost forgot. He almost raped me. lol. It's actually funny to me because he tried tying me with my belt. But I got out of it. lol. One thing that I really did like about him was that he was outgoing and had a big dick (well...that wasn't really important but it made it better, okay? lol). So when I was giving him the head one time, I actually threw up on his dick since it was so big and gagging me. Haha. We had a steamy shower make-out after that. He actually let me make-out with him in the small rain shower too. lol. All that would be cute if I could be his girl, but you know, reality's far more complex. He's a douchebag. He's a jerk. He's an asshole. He flirts with way too many girls and probably has someone to make out with every single night. When I actually fell for him and had heartaches from waiting for his texts, I had to realize that there was no freaking way that I could ever be with him. So I had to move on.

Then I met Jason. lol. You're probably like WTF. haha. I went to his 21st b-day party. He's actually a member of the asian fraternity. Surprisingly, he was in the honors college and doing g-med. I got his number and all, but he never texted so I wasn't really paying attention at first (since I was still obsessed with Joey). Then, one day, he texts...asking me to go eat pho with him. I did...of course. lol. Then, I don't know what the hell I was thinking, but I invited him to my room. I was just trying to be playful and asked if he wanted to take a nap in my room (I seriously just wanted to take a nap). We were taking a nap for a while, but then...of course...it leads to make-out. And make-out leads to something else. It sucks that he's not answering my text anymore. I went to a party looking really nice, hoping to see him there. But he wasn't. So I texted him and he was like...I'm busy studying. Who's the fuck studies on a Saturday night?

And then, there's my friend Andrew. He's not really my type. He's really touchy and clingy sometimes. I wasn't really concerned at first because he had a girlfriend. But, apparently, Joey hooked up with her so when Andrew found out, he was pissed. The night of another asian party, I was hanging out with my friends and Andrew in GRC. Then he started massaging my back and eventually started groping me. I didn't really stop him, but it was so awkward and uncomfortable. It just kept going on like that for the whole night (with my friends in the room...@_@;;). Then, guess what? I find out that he broke up with his girlfriend the next day. WTF...please...noooo...if he gets any idea that I'm interested, I am so screwed.

I'm soooo done with guys right now. I'm going to stop texting people and just stay my room for the next few days. ): I've got to change my new whore-ish habit or else I'm really going to turn into one....GOT TO STOP

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FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

Romance lasts shorter than I thought

I met this guy named Steve. I was into him, but I guess he wasn't that interested in me. We hooked up for a night (not all the way but it was good while it lasted - my first kiss, btw...make-out. I'm a kissaholic, apparently. lol), and he ignores me after. Shortly after when I confront him, he says that he only likes me as a friend. What a lie. I found out later from my friend that he wasn't going to date me because I was Chinese. Douchebag. Whatever. I deserve better than that.

gaaahhh

sooo tired from all of the walking. lol. so far so good. saw a cute guy, but he was short. lol. hanged out w/t a korean crowd. it wasn't that bad. lol

so far so good

lol. exactly the title. :) snobby people but some nice people. i think i can survive. lol

wTF

there's a leak outside of my room. D: i think it's the shower...D:

Freshman Research Insititution

it's fun. i made friends. lol. we'll see how it goes. :)

Triple S - School Starts Soon

gah...I don't know how to feel about this. lol. Of course, I'm both nervous and excited about meeting new people. I'm really scared about the amount of course work. lol. Hopefully, everything will go all right. I still have to get everything together though. XD

Yesterday, I just talked to my old, old friend from back when I used to go to a Japanese School in Ohio. Apparently, they've been having a small reunion every single year in Japan (funny how I was never notified). lol. It'd be cool to see them again...except I don't remember anyone, and my Japanese isn't as fluent as before. lol. :)

2 more days

2 more days till what? Till my friend Alan comes from Canada. You know what that means? My healthy life is going to be disturbed...I SAY DISTURBED!!! this always happens...but you know, i gotta handle it. I'm still going to watch what I'm going to eat, exercise, and not overeat. lol. Hopefully, it'll work. I can feel the fat coming off right now. I can't let it go to waste. lol. XD Wish me luck~ XD Go, go, go away...the fat on my body, go away~ lol. XDDD

Road to a Healthier Life

Swimming and walking. lol. It makes me feel good without making me really really tired. haha. XD I better lose some good pounds off from this. lol. XD

Can't stop. oh, no, no, no.

I love Swimmers. <3

They're so perfectly fit. I love them. lol. Especially my sister's teacher. Apparently, his name is Joey. He has such a nice smile~ XDDDD Love. lol.

Conscience Still Exists

Okay, after another argument on the phone with another hp person, my dad decides to call them. I was seriously frustrated, but apparently, my dad figures out how to fix the thing. I am very sorry for being melodramatic and overly frustrated. I hope I didn't get anyone fired by being a terrible customer and threatening to sue the company. I didn't mean any harm...was just upset. lol. I hope the nice Indian people who have helped me still have their job. :)

I HATE HATE HATE HATE HP

I think the computer company should die. WTF. I hate Lynda. I hate everything I hate with passion. D:

Pain of Being a Girl

Yes, there's actually one downside to being a girl. It haunts slowly, progressively, and yet so spontaneously. It's called Period. lol. I just got mine today. At first, it didn't hurt too much, but it got progressively more painful over the next few hours. I got really bad chills, sweat, and nauseousness. At one point, I made myself vomit. I really thought I was going to die. lol. It was that painful. The two Advil tablets didn't really help as usual. I don't want to go through this again....D:

Long Awaited Items. :)

After a series of threats on ASOS facebook website, I have finally received my package. lol. It was actually really surprisingly because there was no e-mail or notice that my items have even been shipped. Sadly, I didn't find my red bikini top in there so I'm not entirely happy with the whole thing. But, they did give a free shipping for my next order. Also, the flower dress and the corset top were too small. I couldn't even fit it around my boobs. lol. The pink dress, on the other hand, was rather too big. lol. Now, I know that I'm a perfect UK size 10. lol. Hopefully, my dieting will have a good result. lol. Also, I wasn't entirely happy with the red shorts. It's too transparent and lingerie-ish. lol. The material seems rather cheap. Oh, well, it was only $5. lol. Also, the Rihanna belt's pretty big too. I should've had more confidence in myself and ordered S/M. lol. Other than that, I'm happy with the rest of the purchase. I really love the bubble skirt and the bodysuit. It turned out that I really like the black dresses (including the checker one). I'm really happy about the quality of the tights too. They're so nice and comfy. :)

But, people quoted me on soompi. Actually, posting my real name. lol. I'm not too happy about that...D:

Thrilling day. lol.

Okay, my friend was picking me up to see the new Harry Potter movie. We took the wrong road so we were making a u-turn. We checked for the signs and all and didn't see anything that said no u-turn. Although we saw a police car right next to us, we thought we were okay. My friend almost hit the curb trying to make the turn, and I started to giggle with her (okay, more like laughing. lol). And then I saw the policeman looking at the car. Then, we were like "why is he looking at us?" lol. Next moment, the siren came up, and my friend was like "Oh, shit." lol. Good thing, he took enough sympathy from us that he'd let us go without a ticket. But that was like the scariest thing I've ever been through in a while. lol. Let's just say I'm glad that it's over. :)

Oh, guess what? The movie was sold out. lol.

ASOS, you better not disappoint me. D:

I'd better see my stuff here by this week!

What kind of mother leaves her child behind at Walmart's?

Apparently mine. She is one spiteful woman.

Waiting for my baby

My dad was being generous and allowed me to upgrade pretty much everything for my new laptop. Although I'm rather uncertain whether the upgrades were necessary, I couldn't refuse the chance to use the coupon (which of course only worked if you upgraded). In addition to $150 instant rebate, I was able to use a 15% coupon on the laptop. There was also a rebate for free printer, which, of course, I got. lol. I just can't wait to get it! XD

The laptop itself was around $878 which isn't bad considering all the upgrades + softwares I got with it. :D The built date is supposed to be on July 20. I hope I'll get it before school starts. XD

Oh, I got into the Honors Research Institution. Yay~ Gotta do my reading list early. lol. I have to go get my dorm stuff too. lol. So busy~

Shopaholic unstoppable...D:

being on soompi is bad for the wallet, conscience, and me. lol

ASOS is having a huge sale, and I can't help checking out their website every second. lol.

directly copied from my post on soompi. lol. imageshack's being hacked. thankfully, i used photobucket. :D

seriously...no more shopping for me...



























total came to $135.28 including the shipping ($6)......*dies*

Back from Canada

It was amazing. lol. XDD

I really wanted to stay one more week, but, sadly, my parents refused. lol.

On the last day, I came back at 5 in the morning. I've actually been out drinking, flirting, and sitting in the back of a car that was dealing u-kno-what. lol. XD So much ecstacy in one day. lol.

I loved everything that I ate there. Even McDonald's tasted better. lol. Whoever said that Canada has nothing is a liar. It's a wonderful place to spend time if you got the right connection.

Pho~

Beautiful furniture clamped into a small room.

My small room does the furniture no justice...haha. XD

A week till Canada :D

Freshman orientation was okay...at one moment, I was regretting about my decision of going to VCU, but I got over it. lol. There's this Asian girl who'll be basically doing my major and is in Honors College. She's very pretty and skinny. lol. I think it lowered my self-confidence, but, you know what, I'm not going to let that get in the way of me having a good time in college. lol. That's why I'm starting my dieting so I'll at least look decent when I'm standing next to her. lol. But seriously, I felt like all of the girls were skinny there. lol. and snobby...but that might've just been me. haha. I judge people too much. lol.

While I was having a so-so time at VCU, my friends went to the beach week. I hate that they had a great time without me, but I kept telling myself that I wouldn't have been able to swim because of my period. lol. My never ending circle of jealousness. lol. I guess I'll have to get used to it. Moo...haha. XD

So, I'm leaving for Canada in a week. I can't wait to see my old friend who probably hates me now. lol. Oh, well. I'm there for shopping. I can't wait to go to the famous Asian mall in Canada. <3

As for facebook, I added few people so it makes me a less of a loser. lol. And guess, what? I befriended Seto Koji! lol. I don't know if he's real or not, but whatever. lol. What's important is the surface. muhahaha. lol. XD i'm so proud. lol.

meehhh....

VCU freshman orientation's tomorrow. kinda nervous...kinda excited? :D

So...I've been spending few days cleaning...

I'm half way, I guess? lol.

I cleaned my room, but I still have my closet to go and bathroom to go. D: The bathroom is the worst one, but I need to clean it soon or I'll never have anything to wear again. lol. or take shower...

I really want to go to Williamsburg Outlet, but I have no money or job as of right now...I need money and job...;alskdj;aksdf. lol.

And my beloved manager finally quit and left for Atlanta, Georgia. Life is so meaningless without him...;_;

Grow up

So, my friend Kelly called me to let me know that another of our friend Amrita wasn't inviting us or the other two close friends just because she was being a bitch. At this moment, I'm just like what the f@ck...She seriously needs to grow up and start acting more mature. We're graduating in a week! Just because you're going to Duke doesn't mean you're better than all of us, biatch. I hate her so much. God, seriously, high school is so overrated. I'm ready to get out. I swear I'll have fun with my summer regardless of anything.

It's not Pedo

:D he's 21! lol. XD

http://blog.watanabepro.co.jp/setokoji/index.html

okay...2 more days till no more school!!!! XDDD karaoke~~~~ kkk...

Unlucky day...

I lost one of my mom's gold earrings...D: I hope it'll turn out back to me. ;_;

2 more weeks!!!! :D

Prom was totally sweet! I was dreading about the dance part, but it couldn't have been any better! lol. My prom date was amazing, and the whole entire time, I was dancing my heart away. We were pretty close the whole entire time too. lol. I kinda like him? haha. whatever. lol. It might've been just the whole prom fever. lol.

I still can't find my camera cord so I can't even upload any pics of me and my date together, but I do have some group pics so here it is! lol. It's the first time I'm uploading pic with myself in it. lol.

I'm in the black dress. :D

Cross fingers for my new dorm XD

Hopefully, I'll get it. I want it. XD

One more day...good bye, Spring Break, hello 1.5 months till Graduation. :)

So, yeah...spring break went by so fast. The NY trip was really fun. We stopped at Columbia first, then got to NYU. Then, to save some money, we walked from NYU to Bryant Park...which was roughly 30+ blocks. lol. That was really tiring, but it was a good exercise before we filled our empty stomach with great Japanese food. Then, I went bizzark with the Japanese bookstores. It was so fun. When we got to Boston, it was starting to rain. Ironically, we didn't take the (just-in-case) umbrella with us so we got drenched during the tour. Boston was beautiful, and I loved the architecture of the buildings. Unfortunately, I still can't find the camera cord....>_>;;

I went to Williamsburg Outlet today. I shopped so much. I was determined to get a Coach bag, but didn't despite the outrageous sale. lol. Instead, I shopped at Papaya. They had the cutest Asian style clothes. My friend, who is pretty picky, was content at the end of the day. I wish I could upload the pics, but, yet again, no camera cord...muuu...@_@;; I think I've done plenty of shopping for while. Hopefully, I can go back again. lol.

VCU all the way. lol. No more worries for money. haha XD

All Done

I'm going to VCU with full scholarship. :) Who cares about vanity, names, or pride? I will look forward to the long run and have no pressure whatsoever. Spring break's coming soon, and I will be heading to NY and Boston. :) Yay~ XD

SOME PEOPLE JUST NEED TO GET A LIFE

okay, i almost got arrested today for child abuse. I was going to eat sushi with my friends, but I had no car because my dad had to take it for maintenance. So, I had to ask my mom to drive me to the place. And of course, my sister, being the selfish brat she is, wants to tag along too. Since she was getting on my nerve, I refused to let her. And my mom started criticizing me on my life skill. She starts yelling, and I start yelling. I got really mad, but finally, out of spite, slaps the door. I drag my sister out of my car. Apparently, there was a car parked next to ours. The stupid fucking lady was waiting for someone, and she saw me pulling me sister and yelling in random language. So, she thought I was her mother and thought that there was some kind of DV going on. I was furious. D: She started talking so loud to her friend about what she just witnessed. I was like, "look lady, this ain't my kid." She then starts going off on me. I go inside with my sister, and my mom calls me on my cell saying that I needed to leave. I saw the stupid fucking fat lady in the restaurant again. She kept giving me weird looks so I glared at her back. I hope she dies of slow, painful death. ja;lskdjf;laksj;dflkjas;ldkfjlkajskdjf

Oh, noes.

When the economy goes down, my inner shopaholicness comes out. lol. It's always been present, but it goes insane. On a school night, my mother and I head to Dillard's for 70% + 40% sale. Our credit card bill for this month is going to be crazy. lol.

But, I got myself the cutest Calvin Klein bag and addition 4 pairs of new shoes. lol. I'm going to take take one pair of shoes that I bought ($60) at Macy's so it evens out with the 4 pairs of shoes that I got today. lol. I will post pics later. XD Still no camera cord...>_>;;

7th Heaven

7 new pairs of shoes. Yes, I'm in disbelief myself. lol. My mom and I woke up at 8:30 in preparation for the 9AM sales. We went to two Macy's. Both had clearance + extra 30% off. I was going insane. lol. I was getting really tired of shopping by the end of the day when I had to leave for work. My feet are screaming right now. lol.

They're so adorable, however. I love each one of them as if they were my children. lol. XDDD However, I noticed that one of them were deformed. When I paid more attention, I realized one pair had 2 right shoes. D: OMFG, sales lady, what were you thinking? lol. OMFG, me, where was my brain? lol. This means I need to go back tomorrow and hopefully they'll have the leftie that I had left behind. lol (no pun intended). I got two sperries, michael kors, steve maddens, nine west, bcbg girl, and marc fisher. I'm so happy. It made my day which is to be ruined by Sunday in preparation for the devilish Monday. Grrr....

I took many pictures, but I still can't find the cord. D:

This is the one that I have to go find the left one for...It's so soft inside. I really want it....

I don't believe in retail price

I'm going shopping this Saturday. XD Will show what I get. ^3^

sorry

i'm sickkkkkkkkkkk. D:

Betrayal

Lost it. I don't care. D:

no...i didn't lose my virginity, u pervs lol

I love Shopping

O Shopping, why art thou so lovely? lol. XD

I went shopping today after spending an hour at my sister's Chinese School New Year Celebration. :) I went to see Benjamin Button yesterday, but I'll post the review sometime later. XD It's a must-see though. I was bawling the whole entire time. lol.

2 coats. Original Price $225 and $295 reduced to $120 together. There was 70% off, and we had a coupon for additional 20% off. That is something. lol. XD They look so good too~ and warm~ XDDD I'm so happy.

I couldn't find the pic for the Guess one, but I found the Miss Sixty one. It's the grey one.

i'm back

back~ XD

A Week to Amiss

Exams. Will come back. :D

one step at a time

i think it's cuz of all of the clothes i took off before i got on the scale. lol. XD

Ganbare!!

Today's a good day :)
I was inspired by one of soompi's thread. XD
http://www.soompi.com/forums/index.php?showtopic=75996
I will do it :)

Let the Fun Begin

So, basically, it was like having another Sunday. I spent Monday doing homework and other not-so-fun stuff. I hate working. I was so frustrated because the scholarship website didn't save my essay that I've been working on, and it's probably not working b/c of all the other procrastinators. >3<>

Smashing Mag

oh, almost forgot, :)

What a jubilant day :)

I loved today...boring but had nothing to do, other than the fact that all the teachers took the chance to dumb myriad of homework over this three day weekend. Bitches. :) Garrr... lol. So, I found out that I'll have to work tomorrow. No biggie...? I hate working~~!!!

Who knew you could make me so happy?

So, I'm kinda over the Korean guy that I've liked for while because I have a new guy on my mind. XDD He's absolutely gorgeous and cute and adorable. When he was talking to another guy today, somehow I commented on something. Then he smiled really really amazingly!! I've never loved anyone's smile more than his!! It was so cute!!! I'm in love. lol. XD I feel very elevated because it's a 3-day weekend, and I don't have any homework tonight. This week was hell, and I'm proud of myself for getting over it. :3

from Smash Mag

Okay...

this is kinda annoying. So I didn't get into the VCU GA Program, and my parents are pissed about it (since I got deferred from GT earlier). So, now they pretty much think that I won't get into anywhere, which is unlikely, but now it's beginning to really low my self-confidence and optimism. lol. I better get into a good college. Garr...I finally got through the worst of this week. Few more tests and quizzes to go.